I miss my sister

Being fierce to someone you care is always hurts you in return instantly, yes. because the feeling is so strong like an invincible iron wire connected to you and the one you care.

And it happen to me yesterday, 

I had fight with my sister, i force my self to tell her the truth that our mom is always feeling gloomy instantly every time she talked about my sister. and how depressed she was everytime she came back from Jakarta. 

I hate it. I hate when my mom start crying and telling me the same strory, about my sister. about her husband whom to her opinion doesn't like her(my mom) coming to their house. I hate because I'm hurt, i can't lie, i always being emotional when people i love is being hurt. 

so yesterday, i forced my self to tell my sister everything that makes mom sad. i hate it because i have to spell everything from a-z. i hate that she can't read this situations or sensing that something goes wrong. 

She cried,

and me too.

she's sorry for that, she won't talked to me on the phone cause it'll makes her cry, 

I cried because i hate my self because she's been hurt because of me whom can't stand to see my mom being hurt by her. 

and now i miss her :(