Like A Tsunami

Hi there.. a new post here.

its been a while.. how are you there? hope everything's under control for you guys.. haha!

this post could be just another junk of mine.. another contemplation.. that maybe wouldn't interesting to some people so i suggest you to stop reading and get back to work.. :)) 

but if you insist.. i shall continue. 

the first update of me could be.. 

I'm 25 now *crapp!*

Its time to really move on and decide what will you do to fill the next 25 *damn!*. no more joking, no more curiosity to the crap things just to fullfill your just-want-to-know behavior, no more stupid trial-and-error activity, and started to put all your unnecessary things to the box and label it as "won't look back things".

the second update was..

i haven't decide yet! *yeah..right..-__-"*

in my 25 still have many things to make me.. works. i mean i want it to be useful to everybody in my life. i still want to be an oceanographer, sometimes want to be a teacher, i still consider to be a freelance designer or a book illustrator, i am someone who are eager to learn everything about everything!. but the fact is I can't be everything! nobody could be extremely good at everything, but you can excellence at one thing.

this oceanography things. i started to love and love it very much.. i started to look at it with a different way. how come? well at the beginning, since i already finish my bachelor degree, i stared to meet a problem that.. my knowledge are actually very rare in this archipelago country pathetic isn't it?, nobody knows oceanography, nobody care.., i cant even find a single company who looked for an oceanographer to be hired.. I've been unemployee for almost 9 month (if i were pregnant at that time, then I should have a baby now -___-"). it really frustated to know that this certificate of bachelor degree are completely useless and i stared to consider about suicide *naaahh!!!! i'm joking* :))

but then. the opportunity from Labmath indonesia finally come. i worked here.. totally research! which lately.. i realized that i enjoy this research thing very much!.. i meet many expert from inside an abroad. i learn so much from them and its really nice.. to meet people with same interests. i become to love numerical modelling and programming, and everything. my boss *a real dutch* was a kind and fair person. he's deep into the research and really responsible to what he does. one of his words that i remember the most was:

We are researcher! we have to be responsible for everything we do!

All this kind of joy, maybe i couldnt find it in any places. but i cant stay here forever also. 

Live has to move on

its been a year now. and i stared to ask about my next period, does they would longer my contract or how? because i need clarity.. *halah*. yeah nobody wants to be in this unstable period anyway.. and then... the opportunity starts to come over... 

Like A Tsunami

*yeah i finally come to the theme of this post*

and the point is.... i wont tell  the point now.. because it still a mystery :)) i'll tell you later after i decide whats best okey! 

Dont blame me because i haven't finish my story yet.. I have told you before :))

to be continued..

*sorry for my bad English.. still improving it to do the famous TOEFL test :))