These are the days :)

These are the days that I've been missing

Give me the taste give me the joy of summer wine

These are the days that bring new meaning

I feel the stillness of the sun and I feel fine

Sometimes when the nights are closing early

I remember you and I start to smile

Even though now you don't want to know me

I get on by, and I go the extra mile

These are the times of love and meaning

Ice of the heart melted away and found the light

These are the days of endless dreaming

Troubles of life are floating away like a bird in flight

These are the days

These are the days

These are the days

I thought you said our love would last forever

Believing that the tears would end for good

I told you that we'd get through any weather

Maybe that didn't work out

But we did the best we could

These are the days that I've been missing

Give me the taste give me the joy of summer wine

These are the days that bring new meaning

I feel the stillness of the sun and I feel fine

:)

Jamie Cullum, These Are the days

Like A Tsunami

Hi there.. a new post here.

its been a while.. how are you there? hope everything's under control for you guys.. haha!

this post could be just another junk of mine.. another contemplation.. that maybe wouldn't interesting to some people so i suggest you to stop reading and get back to work.. :)) 

but if you insist.. i shall continue. 

the first update of me could be.. 

I'm 25 now *crapp!*

Its time to really move on and decide what will you do to fill the next 25 *damn!*. no more joking, no more curiosity to the crap things just to fullfill your just-want-to-know behavior, no more stupid trial-and-error activity, and started to put all your unnecessary things to the box and label it as "won't look back things".

the second update was..

i haven't decide yet! *yeah..right..-__-"*

in my 25 still have many things to make me.. works. i mean i want it to be useful to everybody in my life. i still want to be an oceanographer, sometimes want to be a teacher, i still consider to be a freelance designer or a book illustrator, i am someone who are eager to learn everything about everything!. but the fact is I can't be everything! nobody could be extremely good at everything, but you can excellence at one thing.

this oceanography things. i started to love and love it very much.. i started to look at it with a different way. how come? well at the beginning, since i already finish my bachelor degree, i stared to meet a problem that.. my knowledge are actually very rare in this archipelago country pathetic isn't it?, nobody knows oceanography, nobody care.., i cant even find a single company who looked for an oceanographer to be hired.. I've been unemployee for almost 9 month (if i were pregnant at that time, then I should have a baby now -___-"). it really frustated to know that this certificate of bachelor degree are completely useless and i stared to consider about suicide *naaahh!!!! i'm joking* :))

but then. the opportunity from Labmath indonesia finally come. i worked here.. totally research! which lately.. i realized that i enjoy this research thing very much!.. i meet many expert from inside an abroad. i learn so much from them and its really nice.. to meet people with same interests. i become to love numerical modelling and programming, and everything. my boss *a real dutch* was a kind and fair person. he's deep into the research and really responsible to what he does. one of his words that i remember the most was:

We are researcher! we have to be responsible for everything we do!

All this kind of joy, maybe i couldnt find it in any places. but i cant stay here forever also. 

Live has to move on

its been a year now. and i stared to ask about my next period, does they would longer my contract or how? because i need clarity.. *halah*. yeah nobody wants to be in this unstable period anyway.. and then... the opportunity starts to come over... 

Like A Tsunami

*yeah i finally come to the theme of this post*

and the point is.... i wont tell  the point now.. because it still a mystery :)) i'll tell you later after i decide whats best okey! 

Dont blame me because i haven't finish my story yet.. I have told you before :))

to be continued..

*sorry for my bad English.. still improving it to do the famous TOEFL test :)) 

Everybody loves Gasibu!

Last Sunday, me and my friend went to Gasibu to buy some hijab stuff which i and her thinks that the price could be cheaper than in other place. so we went there and spent some money for you know.. girls-cant-hide activity: Shopping >:)

And with only IDR 115.00 Look what I've found:

 1. Old Navy men shirt IDR. 30.000,-

2. Old Navy Casual Shirt for women IDR. 35.000,-

3. Cardigan-Like Shirt  IDR 40.000,-

4. Fancy Little Glasses for only IDR 10.000,-

I really can get this 4 stuff less than IDR 150.000., so if Jakartans too much in love with Bandung's Factory Outlet, then The Real Bandung would prefer to spent their money in Gasibu 

>:)

*Thanks to Ernesto the 50D for helping me taking those picture :D

Minggu Pagi di Victoria Park

Last night i was working overtime, at home,-ya i know it was Sunday night so I should not sleep too late, to prepare the Monday-. i was working alone at my home accompanied only with TV. i watched RCTI and they play this movie. At the first time i saw this movie, i thought this is some kind of Chinese movie, because some of the conversation are played in Chinese, but then i saw a few familiar faces and then i realized : this is Indonesian movie. Ok, this getting interesting, i said to my self. and later i know that the title was: Minggu Pagi di Victorian Park.

This Movie tells about Mayang (Lola Amaria) whose have to go to Hong Kong to be an Indonesian woman workers as a housemaid. she don't want to be a housemaid actually, but because of she has to find Sekar (Titi Sjuman), whose missing for almost 2 years in her way to be an Indonesian woman workers. Mayang and her skeptical mind, has to living the life that she doesn't want to, just because she's too dear her mother whose worrying her other daughter. In opposite, she hates her sister because her father keep comparing her beauty, talent, and her achievement with her sister. 


In her way finding her sister, the skeptical Mayang experienced many events which sensed her that: she's not the only one whom life is terrible.I love the way her friend (Imelda Soraya) * I forgot her name* yelled her when Mayang keep her stone heart because she was upset because everybody knows she is Sekar's sister. She yelled to Mayang to Stop playing as a victim, because everybody has their own problem. >:)


This movie is very interesting because its conflict is touching the issue around the violence that has to be faced by the Indonesian worker, the happiness and sadness about being an Indonesian woman workers. In their country they are regarded as heroes of foreign exchange, but actually, they faced many problem such as bad manager violence, loans with its high interest,  etc. but behind all of the struggle of all those kind of problem, they are trying to strength each other because they are Indonesians whose living and struggling in the same circumstance in other country. In Hong Kong, the Indonesian workers are frequently gathers in one place, they share, they laugh and they strength each other in a place called The Victorian Park.


Beside the Indonesian woman workers issue, this movies also rise the issue about family which   is soo Indonesian.  the scene, the conversation, the story line are very touching and successfully played my emotion. i rate this movie 8/10. its a must seen movie. no junk! :) 

hoping..

Hoping is like believing that, the stars will always shine without helped from other lighting source. 

and its very logic!

When everything seems to be stupid and useless, and all your expectation seems to never find its end 

* eventhough statistics says the probability is near  to zero*  

all you need is hope and believe that the chance still remains, there.

because 

everything is relative and unpredictable.

and

God works in myterious way.

image from here

After All..

Yang Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang.

Hari ini saya bangun kesiangan lagi, suara pertama yang kedengeran adalah suara mama yang bangunin, dilanjutkan dengan ceramah di tv yang ngebahas tentang surat al-fatihah. saya nggak denger banyak, cuman denger kalau surat al-fatihah ini adalah penyembuh. saya solat subuh kesiangan. udah kesiangan nggak konsen pula. saking kerasnya suara tivi yang lagi ceramah itu.  jadi saya solat sambil dengerin ceramah.

Pagi ini seperti biasa saya melakukan rutinitas pagi, mandi, makan, nganter mama ke kantor. selepas ngedrop mama di kantor, saya melanjukan perjalanan ke kantor saya waktu di motor saya mendadak teringat ceramah selintas dan superkeras yang tadi pagi saya denger, 'Al-fatihah sebagai penyembuh'. saya berdiam bentar lalu mulai membaca al-fatihah dan mulai menangis. ironisnya saya nangis dimotor. bukan pas lagi solat atau dengerin ceramah. saya beneran nangis. sambil baca al-fatihah.

Dengan menyebut nama Allah yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang,

Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan semesta alam,

Yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang,

Hanya kepada Engkaulah kami menyembah dan hanya kepada Engkaulah kami mohon pertolongan

Tunjukkan lah kami jalan yang lurus,

(yaitu) jalan orang-orang yang telah Engkau anugerahkan nikmat kepada mereka, bukan (jalan) mereka yang dimurkai dan bukan (pula jalan) mereka yang sesat.

Amin

Didalam perduniawian ini *halah*, Ada beberapa hal yang (kadang) nggak bisa kita lisankan bahkan kita tuliskan. kekhawatiran-kekhawatiran yang mungkin remeh tapi mengganggu. dan itulah yang saya alami saat ini. apakah itu adalah quarter life syndrome? saya tidak tahu. yang jelas hal ini menganggu. menurut teman saya, ega, saya menyimpan suatu masalah. atau sedang ada sesuatu yang saya khwatirkan tapi saya juga nggak tau itu apa. mungkin ega benar. ntahlah.

Saya nggak tau masalah saya apa, yang jelas saya sering merasa capek dan pengen marah. saya mungkin nggak butuh dikasih solusi atau dinasehati oleh quote-quote dari orang orang sukses nan beken. saya cuman butuh untuk didengarkan dan ditemenin waktu nangis. nggak tau juga sih.  waktu saya baca surat alfatihah dimotor, dan saya coba ingat-ingat apa artinya, seketika airmata saya mengalir. saya juga nggak tau kenapa. dimotor itu rasanya seperti curhat sama teman teristimewa dan saya merasa seperti dimengerti.

dan saya cuman bisa nangis. sambil terus baca alfatihah.

Alhamdulilah, semoga Allah yang maha baik terus melindungi kita semua, mememeluk kita dengan kasih sayangnya karena dialah Ar Rahmman nir Rahhim yang maha pengasih dan maha penyayang.

:D